This week has been a blur. It's finals week for the kids, then they are home for three weeks. It has not been a good semster for anybody and my house has been in chaos because my children believe I am overreacting to poor grades. I have a migraine that will not go away. I wake up and there it is, mocking me. I take advil and still there. When I finally get to bed, my head feela as though it is going to explode. Two weeks of pain. It's Christmas and this year is a gift card year, my kids are older and only want money anyway. But then I find out my seventh grader still believes in Santa Claus. I don't know what to do. There is no extra money for Santa Claus. I start school January 3rd. I am very nervous because I have math, english lit, speech, health and fitness, and government. Real classes. We are a one income family but really should be a two income family, as I am not qualified for anything. back to school I go. My mom is having knee replacement surgery on January 10th. I will be going out there on weekends to help her out and Honey will be staying with her for the first week to take care of her (and my dad). I thought school was starting later and I was supposed to stay for a month, but now I can't and that is stressing me out. On top of everything else, we have had Mater since Thanksgiving. which is ok, but I had no clue why. Then this week my daughter tells me that Mater's dad is in rehab (for at least six months - yeah. I think something else is going on but I'm just going to go with rehab.....) and his mother is staying with her to help out with his two other kids, but Mater is too much for that grandma.....so bottom line he is now with us for awhile. Migraine went into overdrive. It hits me - I am already registered for school, I am already letting my mom down, I am already at the end of my rope dealing with hormonal teenagers, my truck is still not working which means we are down to one car.....and now.......but look at that face. I know his is safe with us, I know he has a schedule with us (mom works at BJ's and works all hours), I know there is no other option.
I am so overwhelmed.